So, in what feels like a short time to me, I’ve met three interesting, smart, and quite attractive women. Had one promptly blow me off after what I thought was a great first date, two dates with the second with whom I just never quite felt the spark, and like Goldilocks, the third was just right. Somehow, that porridge analogy is making its way into my life more and more.
Regarding the first of the three. I pretty much relearned that I am incapable of being objective when it comes to my own emotions. Well, perhaps not incapable, but certainly I have a very hard time maintaining objectivity. Especially just after a first date. Where I had a great time and things seemed to go well. I suppose I will never really know the true reasons, but I did manage to convince myself for two weeks afterwards that maybe there was still a chance. When it comes to affairs of the heart, I let myself get too involved too fast. Honestly though, I don’t think that is something that will ever change.
Now, to my current beau. Hot. I must apologize to my exes, but she is the most attractive woman I’ve had the pleasure of reciprocating my feelings. She is also seven years older than I. Which is a change, I’ve usually dated between two years younger and 2 years older. That said, I’ve also recently gone out with someone 4 years older. Given that a year ago, these women would kiss me on the cheek and then say “you’re too young”, perhaps I’m approaching that golden age.
Right now, age is not an issue. And I’m going to try to live in the moment, and not spend too much time thinking towards the future of when I share more than the casual details of my relationship with my parents. And to think I was worried a month ago about dating a single mom. Anyway, I am really enjoying this. We have staring contests where we spend minutes just smiling and looking at each other, daring the other person to break the silence.
It feels good to be this happy and since none of my friends, with whom I’d usually call and have this conversation are answering their phones, I share this here. Because it has been just waiting to burst out of me. 😀